Dearest Mama Tolerance Valentino !
I do not remember your first touch.
frail thy name is,you held on to me,
oblivious of all happening around you,
heartening it must have been.
Emotions all bottled up ,
did you need a shoulder to cry upon ?
I do not remember your first words.
With a wide beam on your face,
what could you have said ?
Did you have a lump in your throat?
Overwhelming, was it so ?
I do not remember your first gaze,
charged with emotions,
were you anxious?
Celebrating the moment,
why did you cry?
even as I snuggled upto you.
I do not remember the first kiss,
as tears rolled down your cheek.
You smothered me with salty love.
Sleepless and weary did you whisper
sweet nothings into my tiny ear ?
I do not remember your first fit of rage.
With clenched fists and eyes tightly closed,
Why was I inconsolable ?
It was the colic you had diagnosed,
as I puked over your shoulders
I burped,peed,pooped,and when I didn't
you rushed me to the Doc,
and then you ran again for the shots.
I was warm and you went cold.
When you were terrified,
I was blissfully sleeping.
You stayed awake simply gazing at me.
When your head dropped,
in panic you woke up again.
Your heart was racing,
I was not aware of that,
For nine long months
my heart was beating inside you.
I kicked you .
You did not mind.
You underwent a transformation.
Dearest Mother of Mine !
you envisioned these moments,
in anticipation of the love of your life.
Yet ! why were you always weepy, angry and frustrated ?
Was I really that scary Mommy ?
With love and hugs..
Baby Terror Valentino !
